Friday, 20 November 2020

YEARNING FOR ANSWERS?

A Prologue -- UNTOLD 

Not needed ,but she was born.Nobody spoke highly or happily about what preceded or what followed immediately.
Ani,could sit without support when she was six monhs.She had big ,expressive and appealing eyes was what her relatives told her ,when they handed over a black and white photograph of hers to her ,lying with them ,for almost fifty years.
She wreathed in pain .No not the mother ,who gave birth to her but Ani,Nobody ever asked her if she wanted anything in all these fifty years of consciousness.
"Do you know how this photo was clicked? Guess who is behind the curtain trying to keep you steady by holding on to your waist ?" The elder cousin asked.
" Where's Ma? Ani was curious
" She had gone to college.She has to attend her Honours Classes.She will ask her friends to give proxy for her pass classes.,"immediately the elderly paternal aunt intervened.
"And papa? was a prompt query from Ani
" Uncle the one who clicked ,in his box camera.He bought it in Bombay where he went to attend a meeting,"another cousin recalled. 
Ani was in a remote village ,in a district ,in an eastern Indian state.The drains were still open there.Mosquitoes invaded every house before sunset .Mosquito nets were fixed with strings connected to the nails drilled in four corners of the rooms.Mosquito coils were in use for guests in their living rooms.
Ani stood in the balcony.Her father often cycled down those narrow temporary paths with his younger brother enroute school.
Her mother came with her when the entire paternal family stood beside the still ,shrouded ,thin woman in her late eighties,lay with eyes closed,her three daughters moaning and her seven sons squatted speechlessly around her. Indumati was her name. 


Thursday, 19 November 2020

 Chapter-2 

The Anniversary Bell

Ani ,got a whatsapp message wishing her on her 36th Wedding Anniversary.She wondered how she lost this friend who reconnected for a wish that has long lost its purpose.

It had to be on November 19 just because the senior members of her family wished to commemorate a rightist leader's birth anniversary with it. 

She cared only for the message that she always received from his eyes.

" Are you comfortable with the date ?,he asked.No words could be released as her heart pounded with his very presence.His words kept ringing in her ears.Did she nod to consent? She does not really remember..

Today after thirty six years ,she is sitting with her laptop and correcting the online assignment .Only the bright sun,the chill in the air,the pariah mongrels barks and her enlivening cup of coffee are her companions.Rest is all a history.

Covid-19 webinars,workshops,written tests to prove her awareness go on non-stop whether it is lock or unlock for the common man.Famous Hollywood ,Bollywood and Tollywood stars have become victims of corona.

" I am sick and tired",Paroma was on the mobile on the other side..

"How long to live a life of isolation dear ,even I don't know ," Ani responded ." I had a plan to visit places of archesological and historical interest in Greece and Rome in 2020..Now ,I don't feel like renewing my passport that expires this December ."

"You bet !"Vimmi invited Ani on Google Duo.

" What about Kri,Neenu and Naddy ? Invite them too Vimmi.Let's make a virtual record of yelling ,greeting,laughing and kidding --yes we've not met for 5 months.Just imagine !"

Those one and a half hour took wings and made the five friends giggle,bitch ,back bite and their laughter reverberated through their technical devices.The Muses wondered whta really up.

Suddenly ," OMG ! There's an sms .Pls check on your sets.A meeting in half an hours from now on the usual platform .We are to report five minutes before time," Kri in her usual hyper way literally sreamed.

Life's like that .Happiness is short lived is what my grandmother chanted in a monotonous way as long as she lived.


Tuesday, 3 November 2020

ME WITH MYSELF .

Digital Entry--Chapter 1

'We are going digital now", reverberated past midnight in my mind.The computer has to be fixed.The printer, too, needs a cartridge.Internet connection ,here in this remote area is a challenge.The ordinary smart phone ,has its limitations.

" Ani ,you have to attend the workshop conducted by the Microsoft Teams to take online classes.," the Subject - Coordinators voice was not very inviting.

" It's lockdown now.Only when things normalize can I try furnishing myself with the needful," was my unacceptable response.

More than two hundred went beserk to upgrade and update themselves for survival.

'Ani ,I am looking for you .Can you hear me? the Principal's voice was loud and clear on the digital platform.

I could hear clearly but typed my response in the Chat Box that was immediately visible to the Online Programme - in - charge and those who switched over to the Chat Box ,now and then, out of curiosity.

They thought me to be a gadget geek.Frustration was trying to rope me in.

India with it's first phase of a National Lockdown. March 2020.The Central Board of Secondary Education Examination was foxed.Many major subject papers were yet to be completed.How to conduct the Board Examination in times of Covid -19 pandemic?

The US,Russia,Germany,France ,Italy China and many more were dumbfounded.

All heads - political ,religious,economic,social and academic had more than frequent meetings to work out strategies to keep life safe yet convenient.

Ani lived alone.She decided to pay her maid a six months advance and let off her cook with a years advance and a staggering word of honour that ' whenever required ' they would surely be contacted.

Ani's  priorities had to be worked out logically .'Introspect rationally",she told herself," Mind you any sloppy emotionalism ,any moronic idea,any slipslod plan can misfire".

Survive you must with whatever you have.

Compromise to survive.

Try balancing as many equations of life ,every moment ,without letting go of your in- built joy.

Is this possible? Can compatibility and happiness have an understanding for Ani's journey?☺👤👤👤